Practicing What I Preach
Ok so for todays Badass Moms Monday - I’m putting it on pause bc I need to practice what I preach.
Self love.
Self care.
Filling my own cup.
Asking for help.
Taking a break.
The last few weeks of life and motherhood have just been hard. I’m sharing this bc I’ve been spiraling and losing control and just feeling so spread thin. If I can be honest and share what I’m going thru and it helps one person, my job is done.
I, like many many many other women are working women and moms who have a lot of things on their plate at all times. We’re juggling our own health, marriages and partnerships, our mental health, working a full time job, texting and calling back friends and family, getting enough sleep, scheduling appointments, scheduling special time with said friends, family, your spouse and family outings, working out, getting fresh air, self care, cooking, grocery shopping, cleaning, laundry, oil changes, doing the dishes, thinking of Halloween ideas, sending cards in the mail, paying bills and more. The list goes on and on.
No matter how much help you receive, you feel spread thin, you’re anxious and on edge and just feel off and crabby AF being overwhelmed with the reality of being able to keep it all together, all the time.
Motherhood has been a MF trip lately. We’re in the stage of hitting and not wanting to listen 90% of the time. There are days I’m counting down the hours and minutes til bedtime. But how is that fair to our toddler who is just excited to see me but I get frustrated bc he’s not listening? It’s not fair. I’ve screamed, yelled, cried, walked away and felt like a complete fucking failure in these last few weeks.
No one tells you how hard it is. It’s a fuckin trip man. At the end of the day, there’s no where I’d rather be tho. At home with my family, holding my son in my arms and feeling his embrace. He’s the one I do all this shit for anyways right? The hardships are to make his and our life better.
If you’ve made it this far - I hope you can relate and not feel alone. I feel like this is a bunch of word vomit but it was needed for my mental clarity.
Get yourself a village bc it takes one - we can’t do it all alone. And most importantly, ask for help and take a break. It will be ok, and it will always work out. Be back soon 🫶🏼